It’s hard to reflect when you are moving around so much. We left Panyebar the middle of May to drive back up through Mexico, visit Kent’s brother’s family in Alabama and then head west to home. And now, as we prepare to leave for Europe (today! July 4!), it’s doubly hard to reflect because our minds are elsewhere, distracted by thoughts of new adventures, places and people.
backing our car out after a big storm!
But we remember what happened to Rudy, the first mud victim… Kent and I were walking home from school on Tuesday of our last week in Panyebar when we saw a bunch of kids piled on top of each other peering through the cracks between the boards of a house near ours. What the heck was going on? We spotted our neighbor Juana and she breathlessly told us that Rudy, one of my students, had been carried into his house, something desperately wrong. So, Kent and I rushed through the crowd of kids and knocked on the door. The family let us in and there sat Rudy on one of the beds in the cramped room, crying in pain, cradling his left arm which was obviously broken. Kent went for cardboard to make a sling and I ran home to get the vicodin. What to do, though? It was almost 7 p.m. and where would there be a doctor? Way too far to a hospital. Juan (our host) was also there and said that a doctor wasn’t the solution anyway.
What people in Panyebar do when someone breaks a bone is go to a huesero, a bone healer, in the town of San Pedro, an hour away down the mountain. So, off we all went: Juan, his son to drive, another guy and me. Rudy’s mom stayed with the 5 other children because her husband wasn’t home, working in another city. “Thank God for vicodin,” I thought, as we bumped down the dirt road and over the speed bumps. We found a huesero who was home and got Rudy down to his “office,” basically a Catholic shrine, complete with flashing Christmas lights, banners and a big print of Mary over a table decorated with various other Catholic kitsch. The huesero looked Rudy over, sat him down in a chair and took hold of his wrist. Three of us dove on top of him as he writhed in pain, the huesero twisting and pulling on the arm. “Seño, seño, (Teacher, Teacher…)” Rudy moaned until what was actually a dislocated elbow fell back into place. The huesero twisted some more until he was satisfied and attached a cardboard disk to either side of the elbow using masking tape. He then wrapped the elbow in toilet paper and then a final application of masking tape to hold everything in place.
I could relate to Rudy’s pain as I had dislocated my elbow many years ago, but he couldn’t relate to my shock at the price: free. What? Mine had cost more than $5,000 and a huge headache with medical insurance. But the huesero insisted that this was his ministry and he wouldn’t charge. Juan and I put our heads together to give him a donation of 50 quetzales (about $6.00) and back up the mountain we went.
Thinking about this afterward, Kent and I realized that medical insurance, one of the most
Soleme and her dad - she needed a doctor for abdominal pain and they scraped together the money to go.
Another resource that we just accept but isn’t always available in Guatemala is education. One of my students stopped coming to school. As no one is ever absent, after a few days, I asked his friends what was up. Where was Marvin Lorenzo? “Oh, he decided he wanted to work instead of going to school.” What? Marvin Lorenzo? One of the most gifted and curious students in this particular class? The one who was always thinking, asking questions, testing out answers? No way. So, I asked one of the students to point out his house to me and the next day before school I went looking for his family. I asked a couple of women standing on the path and turns out one of them was Marvin’s mom. I told her I hadn’t seen Marvin for a few days. Why wasn’t he in school? She said that he had seen how hard his father was working to send him to school and feed all 7 kids in the family and decided that, as oldest boy, he needed to go to work.
no "resuciAnnies," instead a "resuciTweety!"
The kids I worked with will finish 9th grade. Once they finish 9th grade, the obvious thing is to continue through high school, right? Well, there is no high school (called diversificado) in Panyebar. The high school in the nearest town is private and too expensive. The best public high school is in the city of Quetzeltenango, 2 hours by bus away. For the kids of Panyebar to attend there, they have to live away from home, which is expensive. Some kids from previous classes have addressed that problem by living communally in a house in the city, sharing expenses and food, coming home most weekends. But, for many, a resource that we take for granted is not always within reach.
As Kent and I have spent time considering Guatemalans' resources and our resources as Westerners, our thoughts regarding development work have begun to change. Many of you are probably already way ahead of us on this; consider us slow learners and bear with us!
A bit of background: one of the issues with Colegio Bethel, Panyebar, is that there is confusion over authority and responsibility. The actual building and land is owned, not by a non-profit, but by a pastor who started the original school in San Pedro, one of the larger towns on the lake. He responded to the community's calls for a secondary school here and purchased the land. People from the local Catholic and Evangelical churches and community worked together to lay the building's foundation and build it. The everyday running of the school falls on the shoulders of the director, a warm engaging man named Max. However, the final decision-making for anything remains in the hands of Pastor Emilio, who technically owns the school. Max, therefore, in many ways, has felt paralyzed. If he starts a project, it just might get nixed by Emilio. If he sets priorities, Emilio just might change them. So he waits for instructions. But Emilio has a gazillion responsibilities and Panyebar isn't the most important for him. Therefore, very little gets done: windows don’t get fixed, rooms don’t get cleaned, water doesn’t get piped to the tank, etc. It’s frustrating for “let’s-get-to-it” Westerners, but this cultural dependence upon the one seen as the “Patron” is very real.
So in praying for ways to come alongside rather than acting as our own version of the “Patron,” just throwing financial resources at the school and doing things for them, Kent and I were reminded of the people who initially called and worked for a secondary school. Why couldn't a Board of Directors, a "Comittee" made of people from Panyebar, work together with Max to set priorities for maintenance and building issues? Why couldn't a group like this help to collect the monthly fees from parents who had resources, but simply weren't paying, ensuring funds for these projects? Why couldn't we meet them half-way with funding resources instead of simply "solving" problems?
We spoke with the men who had initiated the school search so many years ago and the horse took the bit and ran. All we had to do was step out of the way. Without any further input from us, these men have initiated meetings every 2 weeks, have spoken with parents in a kind and gracious and effective way (resulting in virtually full payment of monthly fees) and have prioritized projects.
We have money available to come alongside in projects when they have set aside enough money to pay for half. This method of development is slow, but completely owned by the community. There will be times when there are big projects and it is not possible for them to put together their "half" of the financial resources. Let's face it. One of the things we as Westerners have is a lot more money than Guatemalans. So, we can discuss it and figure out alternatives. Emilio, so far, has been supportive. Our hope and prayer is that that would continue.
This, we believe, is our most important learning. We must step back and foster independence, foster self-reliance, foster pride and ownership instead of stepping into a role of fast results through "rescue." As we thought, we have learned and gained far more than we have given, through the generosity and beauty of the people we have met in Panyebar, through the generosity of Western friends who have heard a need and responded with the resources they have.